What's Happening...

Well my first forays into the new beauty that is me has begun the Eric Jerome Dickey book signing was fun...I did in fact get the Naughty or Nice (and got it signed) which was a good book not great but still good...It just reinforced the fact in my mind that people will fuck you up... as well as people fuck themselves up daily for nothing more than a piece of ass. Shame... It felt more like a short story than a Novel but I can't say I was really dissappointed. There was food and drink I do believe that I am absolutely in love with Rum Cake with Brandied Sour Cream I was curling my toes and I was on the verge of moaning as soon as that cake hit my mouth.. MMMMMM!....it was awesome...

I don't know Ive been feeling so different lately and I can't think why thats happening. I feel thinner even though I haven't lost any weight...I feel beautiful even though my face hasn't changed...I feel magnificent if essentially bored because I have nothing to read...I feel like a force not just a person... My life is changing and I don't know why...What's happening to me?

Todays title pic is hilarious...does anyone remember this show?

Surprise Me...

Damn...That damn Trey Songz got me thinking things that I definately should not be thinking... Damn..."Wonder Woman" got me feeling all tingly... DAMN!!!!! Did any one see that girl's ass...? WTF? Got me all biting my lip and shit... The man has got me curling my damn toes... I'm flushed... I need to get something and soon... DAMN!! I'm so damn horny...How can this skinny, thuggin like an emeff, tatooed fool have me in such a damn state? I don't know either... It's the fucking swagger, some dudes just got the right stuff to pull the swagger off...Confident emeff. Got me all hot and bothered...This state that i'm now in merely reinstates this feeling of lonliness that invades my body sometimes for example when I'm listening to this song...I wanna meet somebody and not that Im desparate (alright maybe a little) I wanna meet somebody...Somebody, somebosdy, somebody... I'm a realtionship type of girl I cant deal with this non-relationship state I'm in. It ain't easy to meet people you're interested in who's interested in you. Aslo interested in the same things you are because seriously I don't know how many men out there can really relate to a girl who loves to mix everything up. From books (Eric Jerome Dickey to Jefferey Deaver), to music (Trey Songz to Erikah Badu to Linkin Park to Nirvana to Dixie Chicks). I'm eclectic...that just means I like alot of stuff...and am bored very easily. Hit a sister up...she's looking...and searching...let me know...make me an offer...I'm a good catch and I'm definately like the mermaid from Splash I wanna be caught...

Going to see Eric Jeromre Dickey today YEAH! for me... thinking about buying a book too and you know I must love him if I'm willing to pay full price for his shit... I'm thinking about buying Naughty or Nice

but I also want Drive Me Crazy

and Chasing Destiny...

If push does come to shove though I'd prolly buy Naughty or Nice...Let's not talk about how Genevieve (the middle name of my daughter) completely fucked me over...Please why are the Best Sellers the books I hate?? Between Lovers, Liar's Game and now this one completely fucked me over...at least Between Lovers gave me something to think about gave me myself in a sort of twisted wish I'd never read it sort of waty and Liar's Game wasn't all that bad...but still not a fave of mine...I'm going to get my girl Ayiddas's copy of Genevieve signed cuz I know she'll like it...

Todays Title pic is...

The Real Thing

I wonder sometimes about true love...Damn never thought I'd be one o f theose people ever in life...you know those people...the eternal fucking optimists...Damn but I wonder about finding the beauty of it...Is it like a sharp pain? A bright light? A sweet song? WTF is it like...? Please someone let me know... I'm thinking it's like the sweetest song i've ever heard and all those nice things that just make you sit down and think and cry and the pain isn't really pain at all but a cleansing, a merging of heart and soul...It's life, it's beauty and it's a sharp pain, and a glowing light, a beautiful melody that only you and love can hear...I heard "The Real Thing" by the real thing herself Ms. Jill Scott. Damn but she's the "it" for me. The "it" and the "ish"... Just complete...Her songs, her voice is where it is at...(i know...) Everytime I hear her I question my own being, my own life and the things I can do to make me better to make this life just the absolute realness...The absolute of absolutes...I listen to her with my ear and my heart and that's what makes me strong and foolish and lovable and loving...I listen and I hear the strings of the soul...I hear life and beauty and love...I can't find the true love, the absolute realness but then again why am I searching for it...

If only my peeps would be so genoruos as to get me all four of her albums I do believe I'c love them forever as they would exist as that person I think about when I think of my faveorite things... my friend Axela got me the "Who's Jill Scott?" and "Beautifully Human" for my birthday and everytime I think about it I smile because she remebered and she knew that I would love that more than anything else in the world that's one of my favorite birthday presents to this day...I absolutley love that gift because it wasn't contrived like some jewellry that people give you it was a genuine gift... A genuine from the heart gift and I'll love her and remeber her always for that... Some people used to ask me why we were friends and I used to thnk how coulf we not be? In my head I used to call them judgemental assholes because they didn't know her...

The tilte pic for today is so absolutely fitting...