I Was Going to Write Today....

I was going to say something about this guy I met online I really was going to write today about the stuff thats been bothering me. I really was going to write today....But then I stopped and I thought today...haven't done any real thinking in awhile just going through those motions again. Get up, go to work, come home, lament (silently of course) about what I haven't got to read, sleep then do it all again the next day. Absolutely marvelous day I have right...? Right... I'm feeling me some Jill Scott lately and of course another book has hit the horizon that I want to get my hands on it's called MIDDLESEX by Jeffrey Eugedines. A book about an intersex guy and greek tragedy is just too intriguing for me to pass up... Anyone willing to sponsor me I'd appreciate it.

I remember when I first started this blog and I was so excited. It was like a diary...only on a computer (yeah I was lame) but I loved it and I still love it...It's on the list...I have a lot of lists and this list I refer to is the list of things I absolutely love unconditionally... First there's Mom...then come books (a little strange perhaps but Ive never professed to being anything more or less) ... then comes the internet and by extension my blog.

I've discovered an opportunity to move to Japan for a couple years to help teach Japanese children English..I mean how awesome is that?? I'm just hoping that all things positive are flowing my way and I get to go and expand my horizons and my vocabulary. Wish me good luck...I don't know what to think I'm really excited about Japan and I'm thinking wow 2 years away from Mom and all the things and people I know...I guess this is really what they cll Growing the fuck up....

Do we really need another person talking about Britney Spears? I wish I could help her... You can only help people who really want to help themselves so ither she's going to seek the help or she's gonna die... Simple..

I've been craving like a pregnant woman Chinese food, Japan, men I can't have...It's been getting crazy... Out of hand...

Today's title pic is LARGE...

I Hate UWI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know, I know people really like to stress the "you need ejumacation" thing but I swear to GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!This place sucks assssssss................... Sucks major asssssssssssssssss.....

That is all...

I even have a title pic...

Just This Once

I watched "Wuthering Heights" this morning...The new version with Ralph Fiennes....Personally the older version is a much better version to me but not taking anything from Ralph, he was magnificent...The tortured tale of Heathcliff and Catherine... (HAHAHAHA!!!! click on the pics to find out what's so funny....) While watching I felt this urge, this need to feel the love they must have felt for each other. It was passionate and hot and devastatingly torturous...It was beautiful, a love that we often don't see. It rips the soul into pieces, makes you incomplete without your partner, makes you feel horrible and good at the same time... Thats some hardcore loving...Hmmm...makes me wonder about the passion lovers feel. You often hear that they were caught up in the moment, I've never been caught up in a moment, NEVER...wow I'm so lacking. I feel left behind. I'm a control freak, the only I lose myself completely in is a book I really get into it and thats why sometimes I get really clouded and thoughtful about stuff that I'm doing and why I'm doing the things I'm doing...Of course it depends on the book I'm reading. For example I read recently Naughty or Nice by Eric Jerome Dickey and at the end of the story I promised myself -

1. NEVER FUCK a MARRIED MAN

2. WOMEN can be their own worst FUCKING ENEMIES

3. DON'T TRUST ANY MAN (harsh but very true)

4. NEVER HAVE A 3-some with your BOYFRIEND and another WOMAN...

I guess you'll just have to read the book yourself to know what I mean but really I was engrossed and I was left feeling sickened and fairly disturbed by the shit I was reading...My fave thing about the EJD books is how he always writes a post note and it starts with the words "This is a work of fiction." It's my fave line and I understand what he means because alot of the times that line saved me from going over alot of edges. I become these characters and I feel what they feel (well...not everything they feel) but I'm there and it makes me wonder if I'll ever feel that for somebody. Wuthering Heights is the perfect example of losing control and wanting to lose it, to become insane for love and wish that insanity on everyone around you. Heathcliff cursed Catherine's soul to wander the earth to haunt him in some way so that he would not be alone...WTF? I was like damn not even wising the rest in peace bull shit...Haunt me forever the man said.... DAMN! I wanna feel that at least once... at least once.

Well on a lighter note I wanted to share someone that I've been lusting for for a while..I'm in my Asian phase...Meet Daniel Wu...

He is just a complete hotness...I'm shaking my head... Give me a hot Asian guy any damn day.... And you know what he is so fucking nice I'm gonna do him (wink wink) twice...i'd do him over and over and over and over...OK let's stop...

I think it's the lips I'm not sure I can't reallly pinpoint why I think he's hot I just do so... Whatever...

Today's Title pic was hard to find...