Yes Yeast Yes...

Soooooo... I had a yeast infection a few months ago. Worst experience of my life (that' saying much right?) At first I had no idea what was wrong with me down there and I really don't have that type of relationship with my mother to discuss it. I didnt really want to tell my friends so I just let it continue. It hurt so much and I have no idea what I was thinking when I let it continue for about a month and a half before finally going to the doctor. I never want to go through that again. I also don't want anyone else to go through that experience or to let it continue for lengthy periods after it starts.

WHAT IS A YEAST INFECTION? - Yeast is a type of fungus. Yeast infections are caused by overgrowth of the fungus Candida albicans. Small amounts of yeast are always in the vagina. But when too much yeast grows, you can get an infection.Yeast infections are very common. About 75 percent of women have one during their lives. And almost half of women have two or more vaginal yeast infections. (Source)

Candidiasis, commonly called yeast infection or thrush, is a fungal infection (mycosis) of any of the Candida species, of which Candida albicans is the most common. (Source) Candida albicans is a fungus (a form of yeast), which is capable of sexual reproduction. (Source)

SYMPTOMS - Symptoms include severe itching, burning, and soreness, irritation of the vagina and/or vulva, and a whitish or whitish-gray discharge, often with a curd-like appearance. Many women mistake the symptoms of the more common bacterial vaginosis for a yeast infection. In a 2002 study published in the Journal of Obstetrics and Gynecology, only 33 percent of women who were self-treating for a yeast infection actually had a yeast infection, while most had either bacterial vaginosis or a mixed-type infection instead. (Source)

In men (yes men too), symptoms include red patchy sores near the head of the penis or on the foreskin, severe itching, and/or a burning sensation. Candidiasis of the penis can also have a white discharge, although uncommon. However, having no symptoms at all is common, and usually, a more severe form of the symptoms may emerge later (don't I know it) (Source)

The most common symptom of a yeast infection is extreme itchiness in and around the vagina. Other symptoms include:
burning, redness, and swelling of the vagina and the vulva
pain when passing urine
pain during sex
soreness
a thick, white vaginal discharge that looks like cottage cheese and does not have a bad smell
a rash on the vagina
You may only have a few of these symptoms. They may be mild or severe. (Source)

CAUSES - Pregnancy and the use of oral contraceptives have been reported as risk factors, while the roles of engaging in vaginal sex immediately and without cleansing after anal sex and using lubricants containing glycerin remain controversial. Diabetes mellitus and the use of antibiotics are also linked to an increased incidence of yeast infections. Diet has been found to be the cause in some animals. (Source)

Antibiotic and steroid use are the most common reason for yeast overgrowth. The former kills the bacteria which would otherwise help maintain Candida at safe levels, thus allowing the fungus to overgrow. (Source)

In penile candidiasis, the causes include sexual intercourse with an infected party, low immunity, antibiotics, and diabetes. Male genital yeast infection is less common, and the risk of getting it is only a fraction of that in women; however, yeast infection on the penis from direct contact via sexual intercourse with an infected partner is not uncommon. (Source)

Many things can raise your risk of a vaginal yeast infection, such as:

• stress


• lack of sleep


• illness


• poor eating habits, including eating extreme amounts of sugary foods


• pregnancy


• having your period


• taking certain medicines, including birth control pills, antibiotics, and steroids


• diseases such as poorly controlled diabetes and HIV/AIDS


• hormonal changes during your periods (Source)

TREATMENTS - Yeast infections can be cured with antifungal medicines that come as:

• creams


• tablets


• ointments or suppositories that are inserted into the vagina

These products can be bought over the counter at the drug store or grocery store. Your doctor can also prescribe you a single dose of oral fluconazole (floo-con-uh-zohl). But do not use this drug if you are pregnant.
Infections that don’t respond to these medicines are starting to be more common. Using antifungal medicines when you don't really have a yeast infection can raise your risk of getting a hard-to-treat infection in the future. (Source)

PREVENTION -

• Consider taking a daily supplement designed to help prevent the recurrence of a yeast infection


• Keep you vaginal area clean, being sure to wash the area when you shower


• After a shower or bath, make sure your vaginal area is completely dry before getting dressed


• Wear cotton underpants and pantyhose with a cotton crotch


• After using the toilet, always wipe from front to back


• Avoid sharing towels and washcloths


• Wash your under garments in hot water and skip the fabric softener in the dryer


• Avoid clothing that is tight in the crotch


• Always change out of your exercise clothes or swimsuit immediately after working out or swimming


• Change your sanitary pads or tampons frequently and avoid using ones that are scented


• Avoid using heavily scented soaps, perfumes and talcum powder


• Avoid douching


• Use antibiotics only when necessary


• Eat a diet high in vegetables, protein and grains as well as consuming yogurt that has live acidophilus bacteria; avoid processed foods, sugars and alcohol


• Always use a water soluble lubricating gel during sex


• Consider using a condom if you are having sex and have a yeast infection


• Make sure your vagina is well lubricated during sex; avoid sex if it feels painful


• If you are experiencing chronic yeast infections and are using hormonal contraceptives, like the birth control pill, consider changing your birth control method (Source)

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The Golden Globes

I promised myself I would have made the posted what I wrote about the Golden Globes over a month ago but never got around to it so I'll just post it here. Sure I know the awards season is over and the Oscar's were just on Sunday but it's mine I can do what I please. For my Oscar rantings please feel free to visit my twitter page (to the left of the screen) I ranted and ranted and fell asleep, woke up then ranted some more. Enjoy.

• Booring..


• Thank you Laura Dern


• Ook Don Cheadle


• Thumbs down Eva's dress, jewels are nice Hayden's dress is a throw up Gabriel Burn-surprise! Yay!


• Zachary Quinto fuck yeah


• New Capn Kirk see above


• *sigh*


• *sigh*


• Still funny Ricky Gervais


• Why is the oldest Jonas brother 6 octaves lower than the others?


• Yay WALL-E


• Surprise Yay Johnny Depp!


• I've never heard of Happy-Go-Lucky this makes me content Yay Jakey!


• Seriously Drew the dress is gorgeous


• *sigh*


• Here it comes...RIP Heath Ledger


• Brokaw!


• Colin Farrell just admitted he used to do coke...


• Maggie WTF?


• Aaron Eckhart = Swoon


• Not too upset about Laura Linney but hate her dress


• In Bruges looks good


• DAMN Seth Rogan!


• Love the silhouette hate the top on Renee


• Fox looks short I like it and not at the same time also that E! Interview????


• Giamatti just said ass and pissy


• Tracy Morgan???


• Mamma Mia? Seriously?


• Kate Beck-Seen it, but still pretty


• First time God has been thanked-Ruhmen


• Right David your "wife" second time you've mentioned her tonight I could be watching Hamburger challenge right now on Food Network


• She looks horribly put together Diaz we are now enemies


• I'm so happy the Revolutionary Road was shut out


• Thank you Colin Farrell, One of the better speeches so far


• Salma Hayek-GORGEOUS!


• Sasha Baron Cohen just killed it!


• YES! YES! OMG! Kate Winslet! 'OK Gather'


• Repeat above for Mad Men


• I guess, at least it wasn't Penn


• Watching Rourke is like watching an exploding star, its destructive and the outcome is amazing to see but it's still sad to see it go


• Rourke just said bitch and something about balls


• Slumdog sweep the ting...BROOMIE!!!

As you may have noted I did it in note form. I remember doing this as far back as 7th grade that was over 13 years ago. I love awards shows...sort of.

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P.P. - I will be doing more regular post now since my BB is now fully functional. Thanks for anyone (KP!) who's asked me to continue. I love this blog and anyone who reads my posts or just wants to see what it's about and visits I thank you. Feel free to leave a comment good, bad or indifferent.

The 51st Annual Grammy Awards

The Grammys were very boring this year...The actual show I mean. The best part of the whole show was cutting the fuck up getting twitter updates from people like DurtyMo, KidFury, Freshalina, DomCorleone and trentvanegas. Funniest thing I have ever experienced. I was laughing out loud the entire time. The Grammys sucked though but Congrats to the winners. (BURNING SPEAR!) M.I.A. was just amazingly hilarious, Swagger like us was nice, as was the Radiohead performance, The Four Tops tribute was nice... That's about it for the Grammys.

Now the Chrihanna drama???? That fair made my entire night, my entire weekend. I just didn't see that shit coming, it was totally from left field. I would have never thought that Chris Brown was a lady beater. I mean he has this baby face, laid back, mellow attitude thing but I guess hate comes in all shapes and sizes. I just could not and still can not believe it. Wow! For updates Young, Black and Fabulous always has very good and thorough reports. Natasha's gossip is always on point. Crazy!!!

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Lackluster

Decided to do a reviews of some Movies I Saw Last Week because well the need came over me and I am always about satisfying my id.

Sicko - Michael Moore at is best at America bashing. To be fair he has said in the past that he loves America and sue me I believe him. I understand, I get it. America needs work and as it's citizens of a world power he attempts to make you aware of those issues so that both he and you can be better, live better make America better. As is usual his monotone voice is perfect narration for the documentary. I have only seen 'Bowling for Columbine' which is one of my personal favorite films of all time so I may not be as tainted as others would seem to be who have seen his Palme d'Or winning 'Fahrenheit 9/11'. I like his film making style he often times comes off very self righteous and arrogant but I guess so do alot of other directors, actors, sound mixers...8/10

The Great Debaters - Compelling performances from the two male and single female leads. Complex characters that were played well and kept my attention throughout the movie. Standard performance from Forrest Whitaker, though as with many actors there is a thread of himself that is left within each of his characters which sometimes unfortunately ties them together i.e. see one see them all. Denzel Washington also plays a role, though his character gets lost within the movie, maybe this was deliberate, maybe not. After all the movie is not about his character, though he has an influence over the three young characters who shine throughout the movie. The real star of this film is the story, the fact that the movie is based on a true story is what keeps you enthralled. The speeches were inspiring and my personal fave part of the entire movie. Overall not a bad movie but not great either, each cast member brought something to their role but the movie lacked overall cast unity. Excellent points about the movie are the editing, cinematography and score. 7/10

The Lake House - Love the story. Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves were a nice energy on screen but the chemistry was lacking which may be due to my subjectivity. 'Speed' was uppermost in my mind as I watched, though two completely different movies I was hoping that the fire they had in their previous on screen venture would translate. It didn't. Again two different movies so you can't expect the same, shame on me for doing so. 6/10

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P.P - When it seems like you're about to have a good day somebody always comes along and fucks you up. It's a lie when people say that what others say and do don't affect you even if it is infinitesimal affect you are affected. So, this bitch, comes in and does nothing but put her bag on the desk where I'm sitting. So I'm thinking you know good manners dictates that you say something whether 'I have to sit here' or 'I've been sitting here all along' but this bitch says nothing to me. So I ask 'Are you sitting here?' the bitch says 'Yes' in the most condescending tone as if I wash her nasty draws each day because I need money. In my mind I'm thinking 'So why the fuck didn't you say so?' I have no issues in moving, I really don't give a fuck where I sit in this place but I can't stand people who bitch for the sake of bitching. Bitch. Bitch also has a kid who judging by what I've seen is a bitch in the making. Bitch 2k16. Bitch.

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I am going to sound so biased but since it's my blog I can do whatever the hell i want...Right?



OK so as you should know by now I have a very large, LARGE rack. A beautifully large rack that hurts my back most times I would love a reduction but whatever maybe if I lose some weight...Rambling...So I'm looking around and I witness some very small breasts on some lovely women. Non existent really and I think 'Wow I do not want.' I know there are men who prefer both ends of the spectrum and all that's in between but when I look on it if I were a guy I'd definitely be after the larger busted women. I just don't see the appeal of a small busted woman. Most of my friends are curvy with sizeable boobs that are usually displayed to their busty goodness. Of course my perception and taste is skewed by where I grew up, who I saw as I grew up and who and how I am. I still don't see it.



I'm such a judgemental bitch too it's hilarious.

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Timothy Olyphant = *swoon* to the 10th power.

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I realized just now how much I really like white men. I mean like them, like them. I like them grungy, muscle-filled, rocker, comedian. I mean I've always known that I have a fondness for the pale skins of our population. I am an equal opportunist though, there's no race on earth that I wouldn't jump on. Watching the gorgeous man of Greek descent on NTV's 'The Hour' and thinking how much I would love to scream his name (George Stroumboulopoulos!) has solidified for me how deep my feelings have become. Its not all white men that I like but I've spotted some that I would happily make my own.

There will be someone who will of course say that I'm disillusioned and of course they will bring up memories of an atrocities done to my people and I just want them to stop turn around and go away. I will never forget where I came from but I would never let that stop me from embracing the future. I love the black in me, every brown tone that my skin possesses and I love black men but I do not have to rationalize my love of men from other races to anyone. You be you as i will undoubtedly be me.

Resolved

I read alot of blogs and have my fave bloggers and bloggers I can't stand and so on and so forth. The new year of course has them listing what songs, albums, TV shows etc were "great" in 2008 but all that shit is just subjective. I mean I'm certain there's a blogger out there writing that "Beverly Hills Chihuahua" was the best movie of the year...with a straight face. If you are astute you'll realize that what I just said was exactly the subjectivity I am speaking about. I never even saw "Beverly Hills Chihuahua" nor will I see the "Tale of Desperaux" Akimat... But I can tell you Movie of the year it is not.

I used to think people were crazy for listing some of the shit (literally) they would when making these crazy lists. Just thinking about someone listing Britney Spears' "Circus" as the best album of the year would burn me up (I mean I like "Womanizer" but gag me with a fucking spoon). Crap is crap is crap.

I have no lists. I liked 2008 it was an OK year. I got a new phone, and cable, a new life really when we moved. It was as it always is another year. Soon forgotten except of course on Vh1's 1 Love the... series. I'm looking forward to 2009 and I'm looking forward to really getting through my Changeling list. I hate making new years resolutions because by February I've either forgotten or don't care anymore. I'm trying to make life resolutions. Things that endure through the years that can make me better. I hope I can get a few people to go along with me.

Now onto Movies I Saw Last Week...

The Princess and the Warrior - International film starring Franka Potente...One of my fave international actresses (you must see Run Lola Run, The Bourne Identity). This movie was...I really have no words. I liked it but the plot sometimes escaped me and I was lost sometimes. Benno Fürmann, the male lead was gorgeous and brooding which is always good. I wanted them to succeed I really wanted them to be happy. I guess the twists and turns are merely apart of what make it good. 8/10


Shoot 'em up - I was so surprised by this movie that I had to watch it twice before really processing that it was amazing. It was action packed, well played, well shot. The story was completely left field and worked so well but if it had not been this set of actors it would have been a complete disaster. It was borderline greatness and crap and craftily made great because it was done so well. The pieces really fell into the correct place. 9/10


Blood and Chocolate - OK I see what they were trying to do. I get it, but the execution was poor. Saving grace? Olivier Martinez smoking up the screen. Yessir. The blood and chocolate references seemed to fly right over my head, I only really got it when I watched it a second time. 4/10

Pride & Prejudice - Usually Keira Knightley gets on my nerves but shockingly I liked her character and how she portrayed her. I mean as an adaptation of a book it wasn't that bad. It had some funnies and the plot was predictable but sweet. 6.5/10

Make It Happen - OK I know no one is going to know about this movie, it's very similar to Step Up, Save the Last Dance... If you've seen one you've basically seen them all. So girl who can "dance" leaves small town to make it "BIG" fails then makes thrilling comeback of course love interest and disapproving family drama (using word loosely) ensue. *sigh* 4/10

Mutant Chronicles - I'm a fan of Mutants and the like, I'm fascinated by the paranormal. This movies screams low budget but I kinda liked the story. I liked the plot and it wasn't badly executed by the crazy cast. Thomas Jane was just a big plus. 6.5/10

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - It's Harry. I LOVED LOVED LOVED the cinematography of this movie. Loved the way it was portrayed, it was dark, it was funny it was good. I really wanted to box Harry's ears for being such an asshole which was exactly how the book portrayed him. Daniel Radcliffe did a really nice job. Helena Bonham Carter was created for these roles. She is Bellatrix Lestrange. The room of requirement scenes are my fave because we see them as students which the other movies somehow played down. It was a beautiful movie to look at. The movies all seem like a series which of course they are but it always feels like we are suspended in mid air when they end. Anticipating the final movies with bated breath. 8/10

Get Smart - OK. If you say so. It was OK sometimes funny, most times not. I get that he's inefficient but it was very "Mr. Bean" you know when it stopped being funny (Mr Bean movie anyone?) and started to get creepy. Meh... 5/10

Jumper - As seen above I'm a big fan of paranormal science and I loved the premise of this movie but Hayden Christensen bored me to tears. Jamie Bell was much more interesting (and much, much HOTTER) than the stick in the mud. Samuel L. Jackson was his continued crazy self. Clearly with that Diane Lane (Bore) ending there are plans for a Jumper 2. 7/10

1408 - I loved the book and the movie was a pretty good interpretation of it. I felt a little detached from the main character though. I felt terrified when reading the book, terrified for him, for me... terrified. The movies flowed and it was coherent, you can understand what's going on. Which doesn't necessarily happen with most book to film adaptations. 7/10

Jurassic Park - Yes it is my first time watching this movie. I have seen Jurassic Park 3 about a million times but have not seen the first movie. Funny right? So I though it was awesome and can only imagine watching it for the first time when it was first created. CGI has spoiled so many old movies but I tried to think as objectively as possible. The plot was superb and Jeff Goldblum as usual was sexy eccentricity. 8/10

In Bruges - Very engaging. Totally hilarious. Colin Farell, Brendan Gleeson and Ralph Fiennes are genius. The characters a re well developed, the plot was interesting. I instinctively knew what was going to happen though, without reading any spoilers or anything and i prolly would have loved some mystery and suspense but it didn't take much from the movie. 8/10

This is one of the most time consuming posts I've ever done...

Random Thought - I want to be a photographer... so anyone who can help me that would be great. I'm serious...or as serious as I can be.

Happy New Year!

Simply have great year. Live, love and laugh!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!

The Hills Are Alive

I first saw "The Sound of Music" when I was about 10 or 11 years old. I was enthralled, the music, the love story, the underlying story of patriotism and pride. I was hooked. Every Christmas until I was about 15 years old I would watch the movie. I was in heaven, along with eating food and spending time with my Mom I was so excited about the movie that I would become euphoric. My Mom would leave me alone for the entire 3 or so hours and not ask me to do anything or lift a finger because she knew it was so important to me... The reason I stopped watching at 15 is because they stopped airing it on TV. I was so sad, seriously... Expecting it to show but having it not was the start of my depression era. It's crazy to think that a movie would be so powerful...but it was and still is today at least to me.

I'm reminded because I watched it last night for the first time in about 2 years. I kept alternating between that and "The Notebook" (which I LOVE!) It was like having a movie orgasm. I swear I was floating. what is clear to me is that I know that everyone has their own mix of movies that mean the world to them that they would stop everything and watch even if they've seen it a thousand times before.

There are a few others that I could add to my own list, in fact when I found the Flixster website I made a list of my fave movies. The list has grown to about 70 or 80 movies but only about 30 of those are my absolute FAVORITES. We all have them whether it be a song or a movie or whatever. Something that makes us happy, maybe because it was introduced at an age where you are most impressionable and just the magic of whatever it is makes us believe in ourselves and what we can do.

The Hills are Alive...

C'EST NOEL!

Does anyone remember a Christmas ad from a few years ago where kids were singing Merry Christmas in French and English?? That was the best ad ever..."It's Christmas, C'est Noel!" I loved it. *sigh*

Merry Christmas to all and to all live, laugh and love!!!!

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"The Incredibles" is one of the greatest movies ever made. So funny and cute just never get tired of it. "Shoot 'em up" with Clive Owen is also great. Go watch one of these great movies if you have the choice.

Circle of Friends

My friends are the most amazing people I know. I love them to death and this is the sole reason that I put up with their, at best, quirky, at worst, freakishly queer behavior. The thing is though I can be described the same way. I love that they're witty and smart and seriously they're all gorgeous (I, unfortch for me, is the designated ugly friend). I want in a boyfriend what I see in my friends. They're great people and I wouldn't have them any other way.

Sometimes I will admit I can be mucho annoying. Seriously annoying. So is everyone at some point in time. I am happy that I have people who know me, know what I'm about and accept that. Not to say there aren't problems between us sometimes because we have them. We are still young and that youth often times shows through 9not in a good way either). We hurt each other sometimes and we are sometimes very guarded with each other but usually we can see through the bullshit and aren't afraid of calling each other on it.

I can't imagine my life without them and I want to thank I.C.H.S. for giving me one of the greatest experiences of my life. I spent seven long (hard ass) years there and though it wasn't all hunky dory I would do it all over in a second because of the people I met, the stronger persona I developed and the book (and life) learning I received.

So to all those past and present who I will forever and always call friends and even family, I love you and I want to thank you for being you.

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P.P. - Totally unrelated to above...Why are all the gay men I see so fucking HOT!?

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I am having an anxiety attack. Literally. I haven't had one for months but it just surprised me. It's weird but it usually happens when I'm wearing new shoes. Crazy I know but true. Once I was in a safe spot the feeling waded but I feel so weak. My back, arms, legs and head hurt.

I'm crying right now. I hate these attacks, I don't know when or why they started but I hate them. I can always feel them coming too. My leg starts tingling and sometimes I can avert them but most times they overtake me. Feels like my body is dying and I can feel it and see it but can't do anything about it. My mind is no longer my own. I just don't know what to do.

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On our way to staff party. Being with Axela is always a good time and I'm so happy that she's here. On our way to fun and frolic. Love u Lex.

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I haven't done any excercise in about 2 years but I saw a Yoga programme this morning and surprised myself by participating. I forgot how amazing Yoga could be. I did about 40minutes which I know isn't a lot but its more than I've done in ages. It felt wonderful. Yoga is my fave form of excercise, though aerobics is nice because you just feel better after doing it for a couple months. You feel happier, with more energy. Excercise really does a body good. I've wanted to join a gym that offered yoga as a class but seriously I've been as broke as a dog for about 2 months. No extra cash to do anything. I need your support (whoever you are) I need the help with sticking to my diet plan and excercising, which I like. I love it actually which is something you don't hear a lot of especially from persons who are overweight and trying to lose weight but I do. I guess I just need someone to tell me to put the floured, oily snack down.

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I knew "Iron Chef" was not an ongoing show but to actually see the final show is very emotional for me. I love those weirdo people, the food, the jokes... Sigh

Last night I watched one of my fave British comedies "Coupling" it was so funny and endearing. I can't wait until next week's episode.

Its funny that while people are watching and following the new shows I'm still excited to wait on episodes of shows that ended years ago. "Golden Girls", "Living Single"... Its all great.

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Anyone who knows me knows that I love me some man. Any race, any type, any height (as I came to my attention recently). I love men and therefore I make it known on my blog as much as possible especially through my feature... Queerty Knows Best. So get ready.

Diego

Luke

Rob

Simon

Schneider

All the hot deliciousness above is as always provided by Queerty and their Morning Goods section. I do believe the best discovery on the web that I've ever made.

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Metamorphosis In Progress

About a year ago I wrote a post about changing. About me changing and becoming the me I wanted. The me I could believe in...but as they say the best laid plans of mice and men oft go awry.

1. I was and still am so geared to go to Japan but I can't not now because I have a responsibility to my mother and I can't shirk it just because I want to experience something more than my stilted existence.



2. Being depressed reeks havoc on my diet plans. Everyday I promise I'm gonna do something about this and everyday I reject it and make a promise for another day.



3. I am going copper just not a s soon as I thought. *surprise surprise*
   
   
4. I'm scared. I don't want to regret getting a piercing.



5. This is still in the works so I'm more excited for this than piercing something. It's not as scary even though it's permanent.



6. Not very quantifiable. But I like me better than I did at that time. The decisions I've made have been made without any thought to what anybody would think or say.
   

My aim of that was to start n the path that would eventually make me a better happy person. The fact that I've done none of these things feels like a giant fist has taken me by the throat but I'm hopeful that I will get them done and that i will go through with it and once i have I'll feel great and ready to make a million more lists waiting for completion.

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Homeskilletbusiscuits!

Today's strictly for my homeskilletbusiscuits... Whe Yu Mean...

• Nikki Z you nuh listen to the music before you play it? You a tell me seh if me give you a tape you just ago play it so and no listen to it before? How you mek dem suspend you again? Weh yu mean? You know seh the big wigs don't play when it come to Broadcasting Commission. A play song wid big bloodclaat badword (the b--b-c---- B.C. dont control me) inna song. Certainly is no skin off my back if you deh pon di radio or not because most mornings I can't stand to hear you give false, hearsay information and mispronouncing words as if the English language does not exist but there are people who love the programme and with you gone that 6am - 10am slot is just not the same basically you're the only amusing one on the entire station. Do better man.


• Weh yu mean Ele??? Grammy nod...Mucho, mucho, caliente, tranquello! Personally I don't remember any songs from the "Let's get Physical" album but u turn badboy and get grammy nomination for the first time. I am happy that we get a straight dancehall album nominated this year... Noone mention Shaggy please, I love Shaggy but milking Mr. Boombastic, It Wasn't Me and Church Heathen to death does not a dancehall artiste make. Shaggy does his thing though and lives great so all props to him.


• Ele back to you again, what is this I hear about you and a...peacock? Weh yu Mean? I am sorry to hear about the death of your dogs but you get new dogs Ele. You do not get a peaccok and wife it up like it's a child. I am inclined to think, based on my observations of the ridiculous colors that you put together on your body, that you are taking fashion tips from the peacock. My friend Axela would curse you and that peacock and undoubtedly the dutty peahen dem (as she so affectionately calls them).


• Weh yu mean? Weh yu mean? Weh yu mean? You know what fucking pisses me off when dem so called homophobes rail up for the songs that denigrate the gay culture and then turn around are participants in the gay acts themselves. What I hate even more is that they refuse to use protection because in their convoluted mind to do so would mean that they are gay as if having anal sex doesn't already do that.


• Kartel that interview with Anthony Miller for Entertainment Report was straight awesome. Weh yu Mean? Funniest thing I've ever watched from you. Best interviews to watch 1. Bounty Killer, 2. Beenie Man, 3. Vybz Kartel, 4. Ninja Man. Absolute nonsense. You watch them in awe. I swear.


• When and how will this daggering thing end? I'm tired, tired, tired of people dislocating hips and the, basically, rape of women in the dancehalls. Weh yu mean? Serioulsy? Pus\hing a woman on the ground then forcibly ramming your hips into her pelvic bone...who came up with that? There needs to be an end. Please before people start to really get hurt. Then again people always say that you can bring a horse to water but you can't make them drink so the choice (if you can call it that) is left up to these women. Just leave me out of it.


• "Trailerload Ah Money" by Vybz Kartel soundtrack for life dat we say! Weh yu mean? Of course... Me nuh born rich but me nah dead poor. Print it, print it...!

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One great thing about cable is that you can watch all the music videos you want and sometimes you even get a music video/song that you like. For example I've been borderline obssessed with Beyonce's "Single Ladies" video because the concept is refreshing and the dancing is awesome. The song I could let pass. "Believe" by the Bravery is an amazing song, the lyrics and sound are so haunting. "Pavement" by Adele is an all time fave of mine and I LOVE the video. MTV Hits recently ahd a Linkin Park video marathon. I was in heaven.

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My mother(not my grandmother) doesn't know how angry I am with her. I say I love her but often its forced and I don't feel that emotion. I don't even like her not really. I'm not indifferent to her but I'm not overly emotional about her either. I'd be sad if she were hurt, but no sadder than when I lost my cat.(I'm being serious) She left me way before she migrated and I'm still fucked because of a lot of shit that my parents didn't do for me.

That's why the movie "Antoine Fisher" resonated so much with me I feel a lot of the emotions that the lead character was feeling. If you haven't seen it I recommend it. I'm angry at her and my father for burdening my grandmother with a child they knew they didn't want. I'm angry at them for not helping her out now that she's older and in need of it.

Sometimes I think I hate them and am so disgusted when they talk to me I want to shout at them to just fuck off. To leave like they want to and not bother to come back because it makes not sense for them to be here. What's the purpose of having someone in your life who does nothing for you? To make me better I need people who are positives in my life.

But I don't hate them, but I don't love nor really like them either.

Mother Fuckas make me sick

Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. Seems to be the title of my working life. I hate working late. I am more than cool with waking up in the before day morning and coming to work. Oddly that works for me and I try to fit as many hours I can into those lovely lighted hours but I've been at work now since 11am and I feel like the fucking day will not end. I have to deal with bullshit people on my left and my right.

I don't kiss ass. At least I try not to. If I like you I like you if I don't I just don't. I hate pretentious, obnoxious, sycophants. "Yes massa...", "No massa..." is not my shit. I don't massa for nobody. I respect your hustle. No issue make your money but do not come into my face flaunting like you have something. You don't got nothing nigga. You just a fucking nigga like me trying to survive. Shut the fuck up and do the work you were hired to do. Fucking Mother Fuckas make me sick.

WORLD AIDS DAY...

For the past 2 years now on December 1st I always write a post about this. Today is World AIDS Day. As usual I hate the fact that we have to be acknowledging this dreadful disease. The fact I hate even more so is that I still have to be reminding people to PROTECT THEMSELVES. How hard is this to understand? How hard can it really be? (No pun intended) This is something I will never understand, much like Tom Cruise, Katie Holmes, Mariah and Nick Cannon. Mysteries....

I want to protect myself and my family for as long as I can. I want them all to live for as long as they can and AIDS is a disease that doesnot want that dream to come true. What always gets me is that this deadly disease is PREVENTABLE. It's not like cancer where even when you wrap your head in tinfoil or never have a microwave, never smoke and drink purified water all day every day you can still get a malignant tumor in your parietal lobe that is as big as Mr. Man's head. AIDS is preventable so no matter how much he/she says you can go without you need to be as clear that you value your life and theirs and all you want is to continue the living and loving.

Wrap it up. To get more information visit the World AIDS Day 2008 website. Feel free to ask me anything or tell me anything. I am here.

PP - YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! 4 Days of Vacay here I come. SWEET! It so happens that my vacation time falls on the day we're having our Bashment Christmas partay. Whoo Whoo!!!!!

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I think and talk about relationships all the time. I think they're fascinating. Sometimes I wonder why people are so quick to form a bond with someone else, its like they're thinking that if they don't form that bond they'll be alone forever.

I get my "I'm gonna be alone forever" depressed moods too, I do but that doesn't make me snatch onto the first shark I see like some remora (Look it up). I will admit I'm really interested in a relationship right now but that's just me. I have no problems being single, most times I like it. There is just something about being with someone that feels just as right as being single.

Relationships are complex. Two people with different personalities, trying to be together, though the love is there, trying to meld these personalities and lives together takes work.

Why the hell am I writing about this you may ask? It just came to me because I thought about being older and not wanting to be singing a song, writing a poem about whomever it is I love now but can't have because of the decisions I made before really thinking about it. I don't want to be with anyone that I just love I want to be with someone I'm IN love with.

Someone once said that love doesn't die it just changes. I do believe it was Dawson at his parents' wedding on Dawson's Creek (don't judge me !). I thought it was so true and appropriate I want my love and my love's love to keep changing into something that's so much better than the last.

I Want To Be Made...

Cable is the devil's playground. I swear. As soon as I start watching one thing 5 minutes later I'm watching something else promising to return to the first thing but after changing the channel 6 additional times I forgot what the first show was. SMH. It's tragic.

I have a few staples that I do watch almost everyday.

"MADE" on MTV - I am obsessed. I absolutely love this show. It's weird because I don't know why. I think I like the Cinderella thing. It's great... OK well most times it's great. Maybe only for me though.

"Pimp My Ride" on MTV2 - I love to watch the crappy cars get made over. I love the rapport between the mechanics and Xzibit is hilarious.

"Wild 'N Out" on MTV2 - OK Nick cannon isn't the greatest actor/rapper/whatever it is he actually does but the skits are sometimes funny and the comedians he works with are hilarious.

"Iron Chef" on Fine Living - The theatrics from these Asian people and the voice overs are the funniest shit on TV next to "MXC" which used to be on Spike. The mystery ingredient is always creepy and the chefs are hilarious. The food always looks interesting.

"Iron Chef America" on Food Network - Not as funny as it's counterpart but still good. I love the food they prepare as well.

"Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives" on Food Network - I just like seeing food prepared and Guy Fieri always gives us some nice options.

"Living Singe" on Oxygen - Ground breaking for the black community and it's a classic. I love the show it was hilarious and fresh. I watch the almost daily marathons that are on Oxygen.

"Ace of Cakes" on Food Network - Hilarious! I love the cakes they are so talented but the characters themselves are HILARIOUS! The jokes are so funny.

(click pics to go to show sites)

Bits and Pieces from Movies on the Movie channels (I'll do a later post with Movies I Saw Last Week)

Bits and pieces of Music videos.

This is sad huh? There's nothing educational, nothing about the news. Frivolous frippery, save us all Lord.

Wheres the fucking music?

I am always the person to watch the music awards show and give a nice little feedback here once it's over. Last night though, the American Music Awards, I just couldn't stand the bullshit. It was literally just one big amalgamation of people with no talent (alright 80% no talent) screaming in my face. I couldn't do it. The music scene is just not what it used to be. Ego trips, schizo trips, designer pantyliners. Wheres the fucking music? Wheres the fucking music?

PP Beyonce looked real good in her performance, Rihanna looked real good on the red carpet as did Queen Latifah. Mariah just ain't what she used to be and Leona Lewis is cute but forgettable.

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Damn, damn, damn. I watched Antoine Fisher for the first time earlier this year. I cried through the entire movie. That was a moving, life altering experience for me.

As I also did at the funeral scene in Four Weddings and a Funeral

As Brokeback Mountain just did. It went way past the gay theme,cinematically it was perfect. I def see why Ang Lee won the Oscar. I'm on the verge of tears. It was as emotional as you can get. Whoooooo

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I cried this morning for the first time in ages. I was reading a book, very beauty and the besta esque, and the hero had burn scars on his body and I thought I know what this man is going through because I go through life feeling like I have scars all over my body. I feel like I repulse people, most times I think people just pity me because that's what you do to people who are as badly scarred as I am. Sure you can't see those scars but they are there. Almost everyday I feel like this and I cried because all of that just came rushing to the fore.

I know that life's not easy on anyone, and I have felt good about me over the past few years but I still have that nigling feeling that my friends are just there because I have just always been thre and refused to let go. Like a fucking parasite. I'm not pretty, never have been never will be, my personality leaves a lot to be desired. I'm moody, introverted, shy... It goes on and on.

Ugly and dull that about sums up my entire life. Thanks for listening.

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I want kp to know that I love her, seriously for always being super supportive of me and by extension the things I do. I love you kp now and possibly forever so u better deal with it.

I've been trying to get a few persons I know and like to do guest posts on here but its harder than a mofo to get them to even consider it. *sigh* I'm bored with myself writing on here. Tired of reading my own hoopla. I want something new, something fresh. Oh well I know someone will come through, let me rephrase I HOPE someone will.

So...I have a beard.

Yes I am a woman, and yes I have a vagina and yes I have a beard. I usually try to hide that fact because I really am not proud of it but there's not much biologically that I can do about it. I want to thank all of those persons who snicker behind my back, laugh in front of my face just be actual assholes about it. Thank you.

I've never cried about it nor have I cursed the devil about it. There are somethings where crying and rationalizing and cursing just won't help. So I live with it. Every damn day. I don't let it grow but I'm very careful when getting rid of it because the only thing more unattractive than a beard on an already struggling with attractiveness girl is razor bumps (eww...!)

So yeah... I have a beard.

Fuck you.

Reflective

I haven't been in a reflective mood in a while. I'm not sure if i ever mentioned The Wandering Caravan blog before but it's an amazing read. Very historically based, very interesting, guaranteed to put you in a reflective mood. A great blog about black history (somewhat) mostly about the black gay man's struggle to be. The blog is biased (but name one blog that isn't including this one) but historically very poignant, the blog literally made me research some facts (because I don't take no man's word as gospel) and that's one of the beauties about it. Makes you think, makes you reflect.

The fact that the author calls himself the Bronze Buckaroo is totally endearing as well. After watching a docu about black Western themed (cowboy) movies of the 20's and 30's Ive been enthralled. Herb Jeffries, a pioneer in the genre, was gorgeous! The movies they looked so fun and funny and I can only imagine watching a movie in those times called "The Bronze Buckaroo" with an almost all black cast. What must have the people thought? I bet it's the same that alot of people thought at 11pm Nov 4th, 'My kids can be/are/will be someone.' Absolute pioneers.

So fittingly !!Hot Guy Of This Day!! is... HERB JEFFERIES! Hot Guy of September 24, 1911. The man could/can sing... but that's not why he's so HOT!

Herbert - This very English-sounding boy's name is in fact Old French/German in origin (the French pronunciation is Air-Bair), based like many old French names on Germanic words. These are heri or hari "army" and berth "bright" or "famous."

Today's title pic is beautiful...

**P.P. - WTF is this man talking about? So I'm on a call while writing this post and the man goes on a tangent about uniting communities and leaving out drama. WTF? WTF? "Jahoviah is our father," "Marcus Garvey say..." *raised brow?* Quoting bible verses, the Lord's prayer? I cannot and I simply REFUSE!!!

Stop... Obama time...

Why are bitches so loud? Why are bitches bitches? I can't even express. Woosa. That bitch just messed up my whole flow.

So Barack Obama huh?

Stop... Obama time...

I cannot even express. I can't. I can't. There are no words. No words. I'm tearing up reading shit on the internet left right and center. I'm at work trying not to break down like a fool. What I love about the voters this election is the way people want to work together to solve the issues. They aren't just depending on President-elect Obama (:-D) to solve all their problems they want to be involved in the process they want to solve their own problems. That is what is most inspiring about Obama he inspires you to want to do better to be better to make the world better. He inspires you to want to be apart of the porocess.

Someeone commented on a site I was reading that they were ready, ready for the work, ready to do what they needed to do to ensure that the policies that are important to them are at the fore. I've never been the greatest fan of America. I like them, they remind me of Jamaica in some ways but the country is entirly too large, too many people and with so many different views the issues and problems will never be fully addressed. In that we are common. Jamaica is too small, but still too many people with similar or the same ideologies equals horrid conditions and no progress.

I want to do my part for the world. Be apart of this world I was born into. I will make the decisions, I will be the change the world needs and if enough people say this, if enough people believe we can change the world.

Title pic is absolutely beautiful...