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I knew "Iron Chef" was not an ongoing show but to actually see the final show is very emotional for me. I love those weirdo people, the food, the jokes... Sigh

Last night I watched one of my fave British comedies "Coupling" it was so funny and endearing. I can't wait until next week's episode.

Its funny that while people are watching and following the new shows I'm still excited to wait on episodes of shows that ended years ago. "Golden Girls", "Living Single"... Its all great.

:-D...

Anyone who knows me knows that I love me some man. Any race, any type, any height (as I came to my attention recently). I love men and therefore I make it known on my blog as much as possible especially through my feature... Queerty Knows Best. So get ready.

Diego

Luke

Rob

Simon

Schneider

All the hot deliciousness above is as always provided by Queerty and their Morning Goods section. I do believe the best discovery on the web that I've ever made.

Today's Title pic is exactly what I do everytime I visit Queerty's Morning Goods section...

Metamorphosis In Progress

About a year ago I wrote a post about changing. About me changing and becoming the me I wanted. The me I could believe in...but as they say the best laid plans of mice and men oft go awry.

1. I was and still am so geared to go to Japan but I can't not now because I have a responsibility to my mother and I can't shirk it just because I want to experience something more than my stilted existence.



2. Being depressed reeks havoc on my diet plans. Everyday I promise I'm gonna do something about this and everyday I reject it and make a promise for another day.



3. I am going copper just not a s soon as I thought. *surprise surprise*
   
   
4. I'm scared. I don't want to regret getting a piercing.



5. This is still in the works so I'm more excited for this than piercing something. It's not as scary even though it's permanent.



6. Not very quantifiable. But I like me better than I did at that time. The decisions I've made have been made without any thought to what anybody would think or say.
   

My aim of that was to start n the path that would eventually make me a better happy person. The fact that I've done none of these things feels like a giant fist has taken me by the throat but I'm hopeful that I will get them done and that i will go through with it and once i have I'll feel great and ready to make a million more lists waiting for completion.

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Homeskilletbusiscuits!

Today's strictly for my homeskilletbusiscuits... Whe Yu Mean...

• Nikki Z you nuh listen to the music before you play it? You a tell me seh if me give you a tape you just ago play it so and no listen to it before? How you mek dem suspend you again? Weh yu mean? You know seh the big wigs don't play when it come to Broadcasting Commission. A play song wid big bloodclaat badword (the b--b-c---- B.C. dont control me) inna song. Certainly is no skin off my back if you deh pon di radio or not because most mornings I can't stand to hear you give false, hearsay information and mispronouncing words as if the English language does not exist but there are people who love the programme and with you gone that 6am - 10am slot is just not the same basically you're the only amusing one on the entire station. Do better man.


• Weh yu mean Ele??? Grammy nod...Mucho, mucho, caliente, tranquello! Personally I don't remember any songs from the "Let's get Physical" album but u turn badboy and get grammy nomination for the first time. I am happy that we get a straight dancehall album nominated this year... Noone mention Shaggy please, I love Shaggy but milking Mr. Boombastic, It Wasn't Me and Church Heathen to death does not a dancehall artiste make. Shaggy does his thing though and lives great so all props to him.


• Ele back to you again, what is this I hear about you and a...peacock? Weh yu Mean? I am sorry to hear about the death of your dogs but you get new dogs Ele. You do not get a peaccok and wife it up like it's a child. I am inclined to think, based on my observations of the ridiculous colors that you put together on your body, that you are taking fashion tips from the peacock. My friend Axela would curse you and that peacock and undoubtedly the dutty peahen dem (as she so affectionately calls them).


• Weh yu mean? Weh yu mean? Weh yu mean? You know what fucking pisses me off when dem so called homophobes rail up for the songs that denigrate the gay culture and then turn around are participants in the gay acts themselves. What I hate even more is that they refuse to use protection because in their convoluted mind to do so would mean that they are gay as if having anal sex doesn't already do that.


• Kartel that interview with Anthony Miller for Entertainment Report was straight awesome. Weh yu Mean? Funniest thing I've ever watched from you. Best interviews to watch 1. Bounty Killer, 2. Beenie Man, 3. Vybz Kartel, 4. Ninja Man. Absolute nonsense. You watch them in awe. I swear.


• When and how will this daggering thing end? I'm tired, tired, tired of people dislocating hips and the, basically, rape of women in the dancehalls. Weh yu mean? Serioulsy? Pus\hing a woman on the ground then forcibly ramming your hips into her pelvic bone...who came up with that? There needs to be an end. Please before people start to really get hurt. Then again people always say that you can bring a horse to water but you can't make them drink so the choice (if you can call it that) is left up to these women. Just leave me out of it.


• "Trailerload Ah Money" by Vybz Kartel soundtrack for life dat we say! Weh yu mean? Of course... Me nuh born rich but me nah dead poor. Print it, print it...!

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Work...

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One great thing about cable is that you can watch all the music videos you want and sometimes you even get a music video/song that you like. For example I've been borderline obssessed with Beyonce's "Single Ladies" video because the concept is refreshing and the dancing is awesome. The song I could let pass. "Believe" by the Bravery is an amazing song, the lyrics and sound are so haunting. "Pavement" by Adele is an all time fave of mine and I LOVE the video. MTV Hits recently ahd a Linkin Park video marathon. I was in heaven.

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My mother(not my grandmother) doesn't know how angry I am with her. I say I love her but often its forced and I don't feel that emotion. I don't even like her not really. I'm not indifferent to her but I'm not overly emotional about her either. I'd be sad if she were hurt, but no sadder than when I lost my cat.(I'm being serious) She left me way before she migrated and I'm still fucked because of a lot of shit that my parents didn't do for me.

That's why the movie "Antoine Fisher" resonated so much with me I feel a lot of the emotions that the lead character was feeling. If you haven't seen it I recommend it. I'm angry at her and my father for burdening my grandmother with a child they knew they didn't want. I'm angry at them for not helping her out now that she's older and in need of it.

Sometimes I think I hate them and am so disgusted when they talk to me I want to shout at them to just fuck off. To leave like they want to and not bother to come back because it makes not sense for them to be here. What's the purpose of having someone in your life who does nothing for you? To make me better I need people who are positives in my life.

But I don't hate them, but I don't love nor really like them either.

Mother Fuckas make me sick

Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. Seems to be the title of my working life. I hate working late. I am more than cool with waking up in the before day morning and coming to work. Oddly that works for me and I try to fit as many hours I can into those lovely lighted hours but I've been at work now since 11am and I feel like the fucking day will not end. I have to deal with bullshit people on my left and my right.

I don't kiss ass. At least I try not to. If I like you I like you if I don't I just don't. I hate pretentious, obnoxious, sycophants. "Yes massa...", "No massa..." is not my shit. I don't massa for nobody. I respect your hustle. No issue make your money but do not come into my face flaunting like you have something. You don't got nothing nigga. You just a fucking nigga like me trying to survive. Shut the fuck up and do the work you were hired to do. Fucking Mother Fuckas make me sick.

WORLD AIDS DAY...

For the past 2 years now on December 1st I always write a post about this. Today is World AIDS Day. As usual I hate the fact that we have to be acknowledging this dreadful disease. The fact I hate even more so is that I still have to be reminding people to PROTECT THEMSELVES. How hard is this to understand? How hard can it really be? (No pun intended) This is something I will never understand, much like Tom Cruise, Katie Holmes, Mariah and Nick Cannon. Mysteries....

I want to protect myself and my family for as long as I can. I want them all to live for as long as they can and AIDS is a disease that doesnot want that dream to come true. What always gets me is that this deadly disease is PREVENTABLE. It's not like cancer where even when you wrap your head in tinfoil or never have a microwave, never smoke and drink purified water all day every day you can still get a malignant tumor in your parietal lobe that is as big as Mr. Man's head. AIDS is preventable so no matter how much he/she says you can go without you need to be as clear that you value your life and theirs and all you want is to continue the living and loving.

Wrap it up. To get more information visit the World AIDS Day 2008 website. Feel free to ask me anything or tell me anything. I am here.

PP - YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! 4 Days of Vacay here I come. SWEET! It so happens that my vacation time falls on the day we're having our Bashment Christmas partay. Whoo Whoo!!!!!

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I think and talk about relationships all the time. I think they're fascinating. Sometimes I wonder why people are so quick to form a bond with someone else, its like they're thinking that if they don't form that bond they'll be alone forever.

I get my "I'm gonna be alone forever" depressed moods too, I do but that doesn't make me snatch onto the first shark I see like some remora (Look it up). I will admit I'm really interested in a relationship right now but that's just me. I have no problems being single, most times I like it. There is just something about being with someone that feels just as right as being single.

Relationships are complex. Two people with different personalities, trying to be together, though the love is there, trying to meld these personalities and lives together takes work.

Why the hell am I writing about this you may ask? It just came to me because I thought about being older and not wanting to be singing a song, writing a poem about whomever it is I love now but can't have because of the decisions I made before really thinking about it. I don't want to be with anyone that I just love I want to be with someone I'm IN love with.

Someone once said that love doesn't die it just changes. I do believe it was Dawson at his parents' wedding on Dawson's Creek (don't judge me !). I thought it was so true and appropriate I want my love and my love's love to keep changing into something that's so much better than the last.

I Want To Be Made...

Cable is the devil's playground. I swear. As soon as I start watching one thing 5 minutes later I'm watching something else promising to return to the first thing but after changing the channel 6 additional times I forgot what the first show was. SMH. It's tragic.

I have a few staples that I do watch almost everyday.

"MADE" on MTV - I am obsessed. I absolutely love this show. It's weird because I don't know why. I think I like the Cinderella thing. It's great... OK well most times it's great. Maybe only for me though.

"Pimp My Ride" on MTV2 - I love to watch the crappy cars get made over. I love the rapport between the mechanics and Xzibit is hilarious.

"Wild 'N Out" on MTV2 - OK Nick cannon isn't the greatest actor/rapper/whatever it is he actually does but the skits are sometimes funny and the comedians he works with are hilarious.

"Iron Chef" on Fine Living - The theatrics from these Asian people and the voice overs are the funniest shit on TV next to "MXC" which used to be on Spike. The mystery ingredient is always creepy and the chefs are hilarious. The food always looks interesting.

"Iron Chef America" on Food Network - Not as funny as it's counterpart but still good. I love the food they prepare as well.

"Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives" on Food Network - I just like seeing food prepared and Guy Fieri always gives us some nice options.

"Living Singe" on Oxygen - Ground breaking for the black community and it's a classic. I love the show it was hilarious and fresh. I watch the almost daily marathons that are on Oxygen.

"Ace of Cakes" on Food Network - Hilarious! I love the cakes they are so talented but the characters themselves are HILARIOUS! The jokes are so funny.

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Bits and Pieces from Movies on the Movie channels (I'll do a later post with Movies I Saw Last Week)

Bits and pieces of Music videos.

This is sad huh? There's nothing educational, nothing about the news. Frivolous frippery, save us all Lord.

Wheres the fucking music?

I am always the person to watch the music awards show and give a nice little feedback here once it's over. Last night though, the American Music Awards, I just couldn't stand the bullshit. It was literally just one big amalgamation of people with no talent (alright 80% no talent) screaming in my face. I couldn't do it. The music scene is just not what it used to be. Ego trips, schizo trips, designer pantyliners. Wheres the fucking music? Wheres the fucking music?

PP Beyonce looked real good in her performance, Rihanna looked real good on the red carpet as did Queen Latifah. Mariah just ain't what she used to be and Leona Lewis is cute but forgettable.

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Damn, damn, damn. I watched Antoine Fisher for the first time earlier this year. I cried through the entire movie. That was a moving, life altering experience for me.

As I also did at the funeral scene in Four Weddings and a Funeral

As Brokeback Mountain just did. It went way past the gay theme,cinematically it was perfect. I def see why Ang Lee won the Oscar. I'm on the verge of tears. It was as emotional as you can get. Whoooooo

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I cried this morning for the first time in ages. I was reading a book, very beauty and the besta esque, and the hero had burn scars on his body and I thought I know what this man is going through because I go through life feeling like I have scars all over my body. I feel like I repulse people, most times I think people just pity me because that's what you do to people who are as badly scarred as I am. Sure you can't see those scars but they are there. Almost everyday I feel like this and I cried because all of that just came rushing to the fore.

I know that life's not easy on anyone, and I have felt good about me over the past few years but I still have that nigling feeling that my friends are just there because I have just always been thre and refused to let go. Like a fucking parasite. I'm not pretty, never have been never will be, my personality leaves a lot to be desired. I'm moody, introverted, shy... It goes on and on.

Ugly and dull that about sums up my entire life. Thanks for listening.

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I want kp to know that I love her, seriously for always being super supportive of me and by extension the things I do. I love you kp now and possibly forever so u better deal with it.

I've been trying to get a few persons I know and like to do guest posts on here but its harder than a mofo to get them to even consider it. *sigh* I'm bored with myself writing on here. Tired of reading my own hoopla. I want something new, something fresh. Oh well I know someone will come through, let me rephrase I HOPE someone will.

So...I have a beard.

Yes I am a woman, and yes I have a vagina and yes I have a beard. I usually try to hide that fact because I really am not proud of it but there's not much biologically that I can do about it. I want to thank all of those persons who snicker behind my back, laugh in front of my face just be actual assholes about it. Thank you.

I've never cried about it nor have I cursed the devil about it. There are somethings where crying and rationalizing and cursing just won't help. So I live with it. Every damn day. I don't let it grow but I'm very careful when getting rid of it because the only thing more unattractive than a beard on an already struggling with attractiveness girl is razor bumps (eww...!)

So yeah... I have a beard.

Fuck you.

Reflective

I haven't been in a reflective mood in a while. I'm not sure if i ever mentioned The Wandering Caravan blog before but it's an amazing read. Very historically based, very interesting, guaranteed to put you in a reflective mood. A great blog about black history (somewhat) mostly about the black gay man's struggle to be. The blog is biased (but name one blog that isn't including this one) but historically very poignant, the blog literally made me research some facts (because I don't take no man's word as gospel) and that's one of the beauties about it. Makes you think, makes you reflect.

The fact that the author calls himself the Bronze Buckaroo is totally endearing as well. After watching a docu about black Western themed (cowboy) movies of the 20's and 30's Ive been enthralled. Herb Jeffries, a pioneer in the genre, was gorgeous! The movies they looked so fun and funny and I can only imagine watching a movie in those times called "The Bronze Buckaroo" with an almost all black cast. What must have the people thought? I bet it's the same that alot of people thought at 11pm Nov 4th, 'My kids can be/are/will be someone.' Absolute pioneers.

So fittingly !!Hot Guy Of This Day!! is... HERB JEFFERIES! Hot Guy of September 24, 1911. The man could/can sing... but that's not why he's so HOT!

Herbert - This very English-sounding boy's name is in fact Old French/German in origin (the French pronunciation is Air-Bair), based like many old French names on Germanic words. These are heri or hari "army" and berth "bright" or "famous."

Today's title pic is beautiful...

**P.P. - WTF is this man talking about? So I'm on a call while writing this post and the man goes on a tangent about uniting communities and leaving out drama. WTF? WTF? "Jahoviah is our father," "Marcus Garvey say..." *raised brow?* Quoting bible verses, the Lord's prayer? I cannot and I simply REFUSE!!!

Stop... Obama time...

Why are bitches so loud? Why are bitches bitches? I can't even express. Woosa. That bitch just messed up my whole flow.

So Barack Obama huh?

Stop... Obama time...

I cannot even express. I can't. I can't. There are no words. No words. I'm tearing up reading shit on the internet left right and center. I'm at work trying not to break down like a fool. What I love about the voters this election is the way people want to work together to solve the issues. They aren't just depending on President-elect Obama (:-D) to solve all their problems they want to be involved in the process they want to solve their own problems. That is what is most inspiring about Obama he inspires you to want to do better to be better to make the world better. He inspires you to want to be apart of the porocess.

Someeone commented on a site I was reading that they were ready, ready for the work, ready to do what they needed to do to ensure that the policies that are important to them are at the fore. I've never been the greatest fan of America. I like them, they remind me of Jamaica in some ways but the country is entirly too large, too many people and with so many different views the issues and problems will never be fully addressed. In that we are common. Jamaica is too small, but still too many people with similar or the same ideologies equals horrid conditions and no progress.

I want to do my part for the world. Be apart of this world I was born into. I will make the decisions, I will be the change the world needs and if enough people say this, if enough people believe we can change the world.

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Sexy!

You know what I think is sexy....?

A guy's face. I love men's faces it's the best...second best part about them. I love it more than their bodies. It's all in the face for me.

I think an unadorned lower back on both men and women is very sexy. Women have that curve...I love my curve I think it's hella sexy and on men there's just something about the lower back that gets me heated.

I like a man who wears his gear not too tight but just tight enough. Just enough...I love it. He looks tailored and you just want to tear it off.

I LOVE how men smell. I love their cologne. It makes me think about good things, naughty things, nice things and not so nice things. I absolutely love how they smell so different than women. I think this only applies to me I like though because some men just smell normal..

I love when a guy's looking at me like he wants to eat me up. That shit is sexy. I miss those looks.

A well placed tattoo is soooooo sexy.

You know what else is sexy...? Queerty Knows Best is hella sexy...as always.

You see what I mean about SEXY! You just can't buy that shit...I literally panted over these men. Damn me and my horny hide. Thank you Christopher, Jameson, Joey, Luciano, Marlon, Max, Nido and Sean for making my (and millions of others) day. Thank you, really THANK YOU!

All gorgeous swoontastic men brought to you by Queerty and their Morning Goods section. Please, for me, enjoy.

Title pic is just as it suggests....SEXY!