Friday, March 30, 2007


Someone asked me the other day why I only had pictures of white men on my blog. I thought about it for like a minute and that minute turned into a couple weeks. What I came up with is that I put persons I find attractive and who I think other people will find attractive. I'm not very fond of the pics I find of black men on the net. Either they have too many fabricated muscles(made from too many hours at the gym) or they're unattractive. I find that black men in real life are more attractive than the fake ones I find on the net. Take Billoah Greene for example, I first saw him in a movie called "PREACHING TO THE CHOIR" (not a bad movie but not great either) I thought he was so good looking I couldn't take my eyes off of him through the entire movie, kept wondering what our kids would look like. *sigh* I can't help wondering what my kid would look like with Barry Pepper's lips (Akimat...wink wink) or Will Yun Lee's eyes. I'm so in love with Asian and White guys right now it's ridiculous. But tell me I'm wrong when it's next to impossible to find a black man you're interested in who's interested in you. I love my black brothers, love them so hard sometimes it hurts. But what do I, as a sister, do when they aren't loving me back? No matter how intelligent and soulful I am, no matter how much I sway my ass hoping they'll worship it, all they do is complain about how black women, real black women, aren't about shit. I can't keep loving people who keep slapping me in the face. No matter how much I love them they don't give a shit about me. Well I'm saying Fuck 'em. I refuse to keep giving my all to some 'brothas' who can't appreciate it. I'm a sister who believes in love and forever. I thought my forever would be with a strong mahogany brother. Now love is just a fading hope and that strong mahogany brother is looking lighter and lighter by the second. I'm all for interracial relationships (how could I not be my aunt is married to a white man) But I never saw it as a route for myself. Sometimes it seems like there's nowhere else to go. My brothers disappoint me at every turn, i just can't keep loving them so strong when every time they do me wrong (the rhyme was unintentional) I'll love them forever but I'm quickly falling out of love with them. I used to dream about them and my 3.5 kids(2.5 is not enough) Now my dreams are filled with a passel of mixed race children(white, native american, asian...) I find myself often lusting for white boys...not "wiggas" either but white boys who are just plain white. Wondering if they'll give me the love my brothers forgot about.
Now on a softer and HOTTER note a new edition of QUEERTY Knows Best...

Meet Daniel....Ummm Yeah...I know.Next up is Michael...every time I see this pic I literally lick my own lips...*sigh*Now this is I said before I know....And finally here's Andrew just making me want to....I know...

Monday, March 26, 2007

Revolutionary, Arty, Bewildering

Enquiring minds really want these questions answered... If you can give me even one answer to one of these questions please do not hesitate to send it on. Questions provided by MUGGLENET...seriously one of the best Potter sites around.
  1. Will Hogwarts open up again? And if so, will Harry, Ron, and Hermione attend for their seventh year?
  2. Is Snape good or evil? Where do his loyalties lie?
  3. What is the significance of Harry having his mother's eyes?
  4. Why did Dumbledore trust Snape so much?
  5. Why was Voldemort prepared to let Lily live after he killed James at Godric's Hollow?
  6. Who is R.A.B.?
  7. Are Dumbledore and Sirius actually dead? Update: JKR confirmed in New York that Dumbledore is in fact dead - but we still don't know about Sirius!
  8. What bad memory was Dudley forced to encounter when he was attacked by the dementors in Order of the Phoenix?
  9. Where are the remaining Horcruxes? And furthermore, was Dumbledore right about what the remaining Horcruxes are? If he wasn't, what are they?
  10. With Dumbledore dead, who will lead the Order?
  11. Is Bill Weasley a full werewolf?
  12. Did Voldemort go to Godric's Hollow alone the night he tried to kill Harry? If so, how do people know the events of that night?
  13. Will the two-way mirror that Sirius gave to Harry come up again?
  14. Is the relationship between Ginny and Harry really over? Will they get back together in the end?
  15. What was the 'gleam of triumph' in Dumbledore's eyes at the end of Goblet of Fire?
  16. Is there more behind Voldemort wanting the DADA teaching position so badly, or is it just because he simply wanted the job?
  17. How will Peter Pettigrew repay his life debt to Harry?
  18. What lies beyond the veil in the Department of Mysteries?
  19. If Dumbledore and Petunia were in contact before Harry was taken to Privet Drive, then what were they discussing in their letters?
  20. Who was "that awful boy" who Petunia referred to in OOTP? Was it James, or was it somebody else?
  21. Will Ron and Hermione's relationship finally come to be, or will something happen that prevents it?
  22. What were Lily and James' occupations?
  23. Will Dumbledore's portrait be of any use to Harry?
  24. What will Percy do now that the Ministry has been proven wrong and Dumbledore is dead? Will he go back to his family?
  25. Where did Fawkes go at the end of Half-Blood Prince?
  26. What did Dumbledore see or experience after he drank the potion in the cave in HBP?
  27. How exactly did the Potters and the Longbottoms 'thrice defy Voldemort'?
  28. Assuming Hogwarts will open in Book 7, who will be the DADA teacher?
  29. Again, if Hogwarts remains open in Book 7, who will teach Transfiguration if Professor McGonagall becomes headmistress? And will Slughorn remain to teach potions for a second year although he said he would only be there for one?
  30. Will the terms of the Prophecy be fulfilled? If so, will Harry kill Voldemort, or will Voldemort kill Harry?
  31. On her website, JKR stated that "there IS a significant - even crucial - answer" to the following question: How and why did Dumbledore have James' invisibility cloak? What is the significance of this?
  32. What happened to Ollivander? And since there was no sign of a struggle when he disappeared, who's side is he on? And what about Florean Fortescue - are their disappearances linked?
  33. Will Ron and Harry pass their Apparation tests?
  34. What's the deal with Dumbledore's family? (JKR said in her interview with MuggleNet/TLC that Dumbledore's family would be a "profitable line of inquiry".)
  35. If Voldemort lost his body at Godric's Hollow, then who retrieved his wand?
  36. What's behind the locked door in the Department of Mysteries?
  37. Why did Regulus choose to leave the Death Eaters?
  38. Will we learn any more about Dumbledore's brother Aberforth? Will he have an important role to play in the book?
  39. What happened to Dumbledore's wand after his death?
  40. What did Dumbledore actually see in the Mirror of Erised in the first book?
  41. Who will reinstate the protective barriers around Hogwarts that Dumbledore took down so he and Harry could fly to the tower? Not just anybody could have taken them down or Hogwarts would be constantly attacked; is Dumbledore the only one who can perform those charms?
  42. How did Dumbledore know the details of Lord Voldemort's murder of Lily - how LV offered to spare her life and how the charm that protects Harry was formed - if no one else was there to witness it? Was Dumbledore actually there to witness it?
  43. What went on in the period of time between baby Harry's rescue from the ruins of Godric's Hollow and being left the NEXT DAY at the Dursley's doorstep?
  44. What were Dumbledore and Snape arguing about that Hagrid overheard at the edge of the forest in HBP? Was it about spying on Draco, or was it something else?
  45. What will become of Draco, Lucius, and Narcissa Malfoy? Specifically, will Draco stay loyal to Voldemort, or will he change his mind and fight for the other side?
  46. Where did Snape and Draco go at the end of the sixth book?
  47. Are we going to see the Ford Anglia in the Forbidden Forest again?
  48. In Chamber of Secrets, Lockhart says that he transformed a werewolf back into a man using the "immensely complex Homorphus Charm." Now we know that Lockhart didn't actually do this, but he did steal the story from another wizard. So, is there a way to cure Lupin?
  49. Did Dumbledore mean anything significant when he said that the Dursleys had "mistreated Dudley"?
  50. Will the giants and goblins take a firmer position about the war? Will they be neutral, support Voldemort, or oppose him?
  51. Are we going to see SPEW again? Will the house-elves' rights be improved by the end of the series? And what will become of all of the house-elves that we know so far in the series?
  52. What happened to Sirius's motorbike while he was in Azkaban? And where is the motorbike now?
  53. Do we know the whole story behind Dumbledore's hand injury in HBP?
  54. Assuming Hogwarts stays open, will the curse that Voldemort presumably placed on the DADA position ever be lifted?
  55. What are the twelve uses of dragon's blood that Dumbledore discovered? Will this be important to the story in any way?
  56. Who did R.A.B. get the locket from the cave with? (Dumbledore made it clear that two people were needed to get past Voldemort's enchantments) And where is the locket now?
  57. What significance is the fact that Mundungus Fletcher has been stealing things from Grimmauld Place going to have to the plot of the next book? Did he take the locket from Grimmauld Place, and if so, who did he sell it to? Will Mundungus be playing an important part in the next book?
  58. JKR said that someone will manage magic very late in life in Book 7 - who is it going to be? Filch, perhaps?
  59. Did Dumbledore have a will or anything like that?
  60. In order to train the thestrals, did Hagrid have to be able to see them? If so, whose death did Hagrid witness?
  61. When Harry was taking Occlumency lessons from Snape in OOTP, he put more than one memory into the pensieve. What other memories did he want to hide from Harry?
  62. Is there any significant reason that wizards come of age at age 17?
  63. When Snape is about to kill Dumbledore, Dumbledore says, "Severus... Please..." Was Dumbledore asking Snape to kill him or was he asking for mercy?
  64. What was the potion that Dumbledore had to drink in the cave?
  65. How did Dumbledore become such an "extraordinary magic user, even at a young age" (a quote from an OWL examiner in OOTP)? Was it just study and hard work, or is there something different about him?
  66. If Hogwarts is opened again in the seventh book, who will be Head Boy and Head Girl?
  67. How will Harry find his parents' home in Godric's Hollow? After all, Wormtail is the secret-keeper, and as far as we know the only way to find the home would be for Wormtail to tell Harry its location.
  68. Will Luna have a prominent role in Book 7? Will she live through the war?
  69. Is there a connection between Godric's Hollow and Godric Gryffindor?
  70. Do we know the full reason that Voldemort decided to try to kill Harry instead of Neville?
  71. How did Hagrid retrieve Harry from the ruins of his parents' house if he was not told the location by the secret-keeper?
  72. Now that Dumbledore's dead, who is the secret-keeper of the Order of the Phoenix? Is the spell broken?
  73. Is there more to the curtain that Sirius fell through in Order of the Phoenix?
  74. Where did the Potter family's wealth come from?
  75. Why did Dumbledore give Snape the DADA job if Dumbledore knew that there was a jinx on the position?
  76. Will Voldemort be angry that Snape killed Dumbledore rather than letting Draco go through with the job?
  77. What truly determines whether or not someone becomes a ghost? Is there more to it than what Nearly Headless Nick said there was?
  78. What is Grawp's role going to be in Book 7? Will he even have a role?
  79. When Dumbledore is explaining to the Dursley's that the magic protecting Harry will cease to operate on his 17th birthday, each of the Dursley's reactions are given, and it says that Aunt Petunia "was oddly flushed." What is the significance of that? Does she know something more?
I guess I could leave you wit a little supm, supm until my next post so Hot Guy Through the Centuries Presents...

Channing...Hot guy of 1318...So damn nice I had to have him twice

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Of Dry Feet And Bad Skin

I have yet to meet an individual who is completely in love with who they are, where they're going and who they want to be. Still hoping I'll receive that first class Honors at the end of my tenure at University but I do believe that I have basically no time left to decide what I am going to do with the rest of my life. (I have a general idea but I don't have a detailed map yet)I want to go to Cuba on a Scolarship to learn Spanish for a year. Then I want to go to... some university (not UWI) where I can do my masters in forensic and clinical psychology. I still have my student's loan to pay back and I need to get a job to do that. I'm not worried about who I'm going to be because hell I'm half way there already. I'm worried that I wont get the chance to be me, do me, experience all there is to experience as me. I want to go on that European tour I've been promising myself. I want to travel to Asia and go to Africa, see where my fore fathers came from (cry a little for them, for me and for the people there now who are just trying to live their lives through) Je veux apprendre au francais et l'allemand couramment. I want to spend a couple euros on a french painter's depiction of me in front of the Eiffel Tower. I don't want to do it alone either. If I so happen to be with someone I hope it's someone I love and I'll love them forever because they lived that dream with me. I want to wear scarves in Rome and heels on the streets of Vienna. I want to go to Las Vegas and win $1000 drink a peach martini then go to my room and order pizza and burgers from room service. I want to work in an office in Spain open up my practice and wear dashing reds and vivid blues to work every day. I want to see the sun set in the Serengetti possibly see a lion in its own habitat and marvel at how beautiful it is. My dreams seem so big sometimes and I'm sure going to work as hard as hell to make them come true....So should you.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007


I was bored out of my living skull today...I just want to go home and sleep and eat and not be bored. I say BOOOOOOOOOOOO!! This not going on the blogs thing is HARD as well as the not eating snacks thing. I have nothing to do but sit here and be bored out of my skull. This is the least...oh kill me I'm even bored here. I saw some movies the other day when I remember what they are I'll write about them. I watched the Oscar's and thought it was one of the better ones in awhile. I liked it I was a little shocked when "Departed" won Best Picture( I was kinda rooting for "Little Miss Sunshine" even though I know they wouldn't let it win) but hey whatever. Loved Ellen...

as host I was laughing at least a little and was kinda surprised that they didn't cut out Melissa Etheridge's kiss with her wife.

I have no problems with it personally and think it was a pleasant surprise I mean Ellen is a flaming lesbian and her girlfriend was in the audience so maybe the winds are shifting a little bit. Maybe one day we'll all be able to live together like human beings without hate, discrimination, war, poverty, degradation crime etc, etc, etc...I could go on and on and on and on. That's about all I can do today because I'm feeling as sick as a dog.... BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!